Creating “The Wall'' is by far the most important thing I have ever done for myself. Isolation as an artist has been a very difficult problem for me to overcome. Being alone with just me and my thoughts is overwhelming, and when it’s for hours on end, it becomes fucking terrifying. The human mind is disgusting. However, the human mind is also beautiful. Being able to approach the highs and the lows and use them interchangeably at the same time is what leads us to peak performance. This state of peak performance is the “flow” state.

     I can’t remember when I first learned about the flow state, but ever since I found out about it, I have been chasing after it. I’ve become so obsessed with the flow state that I have practically humanized it and worshiped it as a divine entity. Isolation and the flow state come hand in hand. You don’t need physical isolation to achieve the flow state, but you do need mental isolation. Once isolation is obtained, all that's left to do is to do.

     There were many times where I screamed, cried, and attacked The Wall. The Wall is not only a literal wall, but to me it was the physical embodiment of my mind, and I needed to defeat myself. I fucking hated The Wall. It was my enemy. I would come to the studio and spend countless hours fighting him. I wasn’t going to let The Wall defeat me. 

     Now 132 hours later, I have finally defeated The Wall. I was only able to defeat The Wall because of the flow state. The flow state is what kept me sane. I can’t remember doing any actual thinking, all I can remember is putting my paint marker to the wall and just letting it run free. It was almost like the flow state unlocked something hidden inside of me that needed to set free.